It was fun while it lasted.
clearly i am still hurt by you.
this is the only place where i can vent out my true feelings without being judged/spied on by my family or friends or whomever is concerned.things have gotten very public and i hate it.
anyway this is about my *i dont know whether i can still call her bestfriend anymore* friend.whom have gotten on my nerve for the past year.well we decided to talk it out.heck i initiated it.urgh.well we got to how we were before.god knows i tried.but i guess some of what she does still hurts me.she keeps saying how she doesnt have money and all but she posts that she buys stuffs and goes here and there.how am i suppose to believe you.not to mention how much her effort to keep in touch.there are just all these possible ways to talk but she never took advantage of any of it.therefore clearly it was me who have been initiating everything before this.
then theres the usual trip we take.all of them said they missed it.so come on plan something.or at least help me plan it.but noooooo they would just go u plan it.u’re good at it.fuck you!y do i hv to keep doing everything.when i said im not gonna do it.nobody else stepped up to take the job.so settle with staying where you are then.i am sad i am hurt i just want someone to do something for me for a change.
i must say all the things that you did that hurt me has changed how i do things.i no longer find joy in planning anything or i just cant look at you w/o being suspicious.
and i really hate this.
because clearly i am still hurt by you,your actions and the fact that you havent changed or put the thought to change.
the wound is still fresh.